Pain isn’t the word.
I hear a lot of people talking about pain,
But that’s not the right word.
I’m not sure what is.
Grief seems too trite,
Loss comes close,
But it’s still not quite right.
So, what is the word?
I’m afraid one word isn’t enough
To contain my feelings.
It’s the knowledge that I’ll never see you again,
Never talk to you again,
Never again see your number come up
On my caller ID
It’s knowing I’ll see and hear things,
And immediately think of you,
Before I realize
I’ll never share anything with you again.
It’s wondering what I’ll do
The next time I have a question to ask you.
Where will I turn?
It’s the realization that I can’t remember
The last time I hugged you.
It’s knowing that no one on this planet
Knows me like you did.
So, what word can cover all that?